I do believe I have slept an average of six hours a night for the last two weeks with an occasional nine hour night plus a couple of days with naps. I favor 8 hours or more! Mama likes her sleep! haha.
I am tired.
I’m worn.
Mama needs to recharge.
The scence last night at 3am in the dark cool room she said, “Mom… mom… I wet the bed.”
“Urgh… go grab a towel and lay it down. You’re going to wake everyone up!” I groaned.
“Moomm… I need new underwear or a diaper.” She demanded
“Urgh, just take off the wet undie and wrap yourself in this blanket. Be quiet… shhh…” I commanded. I moaned, as I reached for the extra blanket a the foot of my bed. I was awake, annoyed and angry…
Update: Everything turned out fine. She went back to sleep after getting situated but in the night I was not sure how I’d recover then boom, I fell asleep…
Well, I woke up this morning to hear my three big girls cheerfully collaborating on the morning to do’s. *Music to my heart and ears
*Cue the ugly cry face and the hard, cold heart melting* as I lay with the three year old on my right side with her leg across my leg and the baby on my left, head resting on my arms and nursing at about 8:30am.
I could not believe my ears!
*sigh*
Life is full of moments. Ugly, Beautiful, Crazy… many moments and many emotions.
I tell this story to share of a redemptive God and a redeemed woman, me. I was not into helping or being a mom or anything good being woken up from sleep at 3am. I was a bear! YET: I see his grace covering me, once again.
The Bible says… “It’s your kindness that leads me to repentance.”
Romans 2:4 New Living Translation 4 Don’t you see how wonderfully kind, tolerant, and patient God is with you? Does this mean nothing to you? Can’t you see that his kindness is intended to turn you from your sin?
I was found repenting this morning. Oh God, I am so sorry for how short I am with my children and how irritable I can be. My heart so cold at times and my patience so little. At the sound of three sweet sisters collaborating and checking off their “to do” list and playing together, I was struck. In my heart, I felt his grace surrounding me yet another day.
Though my night was difficult and sleep disturbed, I found his mercies anew this morning.
Prayer: God, I praise you! I praise you, Lord for a new day filled with much love, joy and peace. Only by your goodness and grace could I have stepped into all you had for me and my children. I thank you.
*Parenting.. you get one day at a time. I am grateful for days like this because it reminds me that his grace covers all. We had some head-butting and sour attitudes but when my children choose to operate in love and kindness towards one another and towards me: wow! I am reminded the blessing they are… (even on the hard days)… I am reminded I get these five to teach, train and lead. May I do in his grace and mercy.
Abundant Mommyhood 