I’m realizing I’ve gone through the grief process and am going through it. Depending on the day, I’ll be grieving loss. I wish I could share it all and share it openly. I’d like to share that I have mourned the person I once was: hurried, “mentally gone” at time though physically present. This COVID 19 season, I’ve accepted Shelter in Place and enjoyed the inner working of Holy Spirit working in me. He’s loving and gentle and shown me compassion and love for me and to extend that to others.
A few things I’d like to do differently as I walk through life after COVID19 Shelter in Place is to look at my spouse and children while I answer. No matter the task I find myself in the middle of, I will stop turn and look at each of them.
One of my mentors, say that when I’m moving on to the next thing or feeling frustrated in the moment it could be a matter of my heart isn’t home. I am praying a new prayer that God would bring my heart home.
Did you ever play the game and ask… “If you were stranded on an island, who would you have or what would you bring?!” Well, the island has been brought to you. We’re in our own homes, sheltering in place. Who did you choose to have on the island, what are you learning about yourself and your people? What can you do to build well what you want? How are you for one another rather than against one another?
I’m praying this is a season you’re exercising some hard, heart questions.
Let’s pray: Dear God, I don’t want the stress to get a hold of me but me to get a hold of the stress. I know this will pass and I need your stress to make it through. As I ask you to search my heart, may I come humbly before you. Whatever you want to work on, let me grow and flourish in. For your name sake. Amen
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